I get frustrated and worry about things that just aren’t that big a deal. I guess it has something to do with my need to feel that events and situations around me are under control. And I really need that feeling. I don’t need to be the one doing the controlling, but I do need to feel that someone is in control. Just letting things happen bothers me.

Sometimes a real or perceived lack of control and organization will cause me to take a leadership role where I shouldn’t. I try to control a situation where I don’t have the authority to do so. Or where organization is not really needed. That usually just causes me more stress. Other times, I’ll be unable to do anything about the disorganization for one reason or another. Then the stress will build until I grow irritable to those around me, or I remove myself from the situation.

The truth is that most of the time it makes no real difference to the final outcome. A lot of times that situation doesn’t need to be controlled and organized. Simply letting things happen is good enough. I’m stressing myself out over nothing or over things that can’t be organized. Trying to do something about it doesn’t relieve my stress, it just increases it for myself and everyone around me.

Just the other day I was complaining to a coworker. I told him that the lack of organization and control in a particular project was stressing me out. He made a statement that sounds flippant, but is actually true. He said, “Control is just an illusion.” And he was right. Even when I feel that things around me are organized and controlled, I’m just fooling myself. So why stress?

If I can just remember that I don’t need to have things around me controlled and organized, then I won’t get so stressed.